The next 30 days…

“Turn away from evil and do good. Search for peace, and work to maintain it.”
(1 Peter 3:11 NLT)

The evil that we are all called to turn away from looks different in each of our lives. It’s easy when you you hear the word evil to conjure imagery of witches or Charles Manson or something, but evil also represents itself in all of our lives in many deceitful, sneaky ways.
Appearing comforting or soothing and attractive.
Pleasant even.
For me, one of the evils I admittedly engage in is the practice of binge eating. For the sake of being REAL, I have been very transparent about this. Obviously, eating and even enjoying food is an innocent and necessary act. However, anything that enslaves you and starts to chip away at your well being (physical, mental, spiritual) is evil. It binds me and harms me and keeps me from being the me I was created to be. There is normal eating ( in bounds) and binge eating ( out of bounds) and I have reached a place in my working through it now where I can tell the difference. I understand that this will probably be a lifelong struggle for me. I have no naive thoughts of somehow magically being healed behaviorally and be able to just go ahead and eat “normal”. I’ve learned it’s a consistent choice I have to make daily to stay in bounds. That is the only way to have peace. The only way to be truly sober. I have to choose daily to pray for the strength to do what is required. To turn from evil and WORK to maintain my momentum. Peace is not an arrival. It’s something that must be pursued and and sought after.
The hardest part of it all is, when in recovery from other substances people are instructed to abstain and avoid the “whatever” it is they are trying to be rid of. Well, I can’t abstain from eating. I sometimes
wish it were that easy. There have been times I have even used that as an excuse,
” We’ll I can’t NOT eat so what’s the point…?”
Boo. Like I said, there is “in bounds”
and “out of bounds” and I darn well know the difference.
The reason I share all this today is to invite you to please ( if you are the praying type) to join me the next 30 days in prayer. I know that I have reached the point in my journey where the rubber meets the road and its time to get busy. I have done MUCH of the heart and head work and as I continue to stretch and learn in those ways, I must also stretch and grow in the physical ways.
Since I can’t leave my family for a 30 day treatment retreat ( or as so many well intentioned people suggest, go on the “Biggest Loser”) I have decided to conduct my own boot camp/faux rehab for myself here at home. I have been researching the schedules and content of different programs and I will be adapting it to my real living life and sharing what I’m learning here on my blog.
The goal for me is obviously losing weight, feeling better, being a good example, ect. Create good healthy habits, form discipline for working out and eating in bounds.
Mostly though, it is the pursuit of PEACE in my heart and in my life. The freedom from slavery by exchanging lies for truth, and turning from evil to do GOOD.

8 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Randy Siever
    Apr 08, 2013 @ 07:40:59

    Praying for you, Mandi. And suggesting that you engage both a “coach” and a couple of friends who will do this with you (support…and not just the cheerleading kind, but the kind that will struggle and sweat with you for 30 days). Also, my wife has been a lifelong food addict. She has figured a few things out (obviously) and actually was going to OA meetings for a few years. She might be of some help to you.

    I, on the other hand, will be of little help except by means of prayer. I could blame my back surgery and the intense pain I live with both in my back and right leg for my present state. But as you know, it’s about something else deep inside. For me it is laziness (I think…I’ve called it a lack of discipline which seems less disgusting) and a disdain for sweating (which I do liberally just by thinking about exercise). I have to shower after anything that gets my heart rate up, and so I don’t have “time” to do this. Or money. Or ability. Or friends who do. Or a gym membership. Or…well, you know.

    So you can pray for me, too. I need to start moving regularly, despite the pain. I’m no spring chicken anymore so I can’t get away with being lazy about my health. I don’t rebound like I used to. And I can’t stand my increasing girth.

    Lord, have mercy on me. May you bless Mandi with great courage and persistence and keep her focus on you and her goals for this month. And may she experience your joy in all it’s fullness as she does. Amen.


  2. Austin Franklin Thomas
    Apr 08, 2013 @ 07:41:32

    Have you heard of the Daniel Fast?

    Not trying to be obnoxious or anything, since our situations are different etc. But I did it for 21 days, and it significantly changed my outlook towards food and eating. And the cool part is I did it like a year ago, and it’s still stuck with me. Might be worth a look, at some point. 🙂


  3. MikesYf
    Apr 08, 2013 @ 12:54:57

    Praying for you. I pray the Lord would give you wisdom in exactly what is best for you as you embark on your thirty days. With Easter passing so recently try to reflect on all Jesus has done for us and let Him be strength to you (surrender). Stand and keep standing! You are doing something now the you a year from now will be happy you did!!! I sure would like to be able to talk with you, especially before the 30 days is up!


  4. Sandy S
    Apr 08, 2013 @ 19:49:57

    Mandy, I will definitely pray for you! it does seem like it would be nice to have someone do this with you if possible. It is nice to have someone to be accountable with. so proud of what you’re doing. let me know if you want to chat!


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

Mandi Holden

Believe. Begin. Persist

>>New adventure<<



A great site

Michelle R. Terry

Cultivating Joy, Gratitude, and Wellness


A collection of words to spice your existence by KAYO LOGUN

Anthony Hymn

Thoughts, Feelings, and Rhythms.

Kelsey Hough-Munger

life-lover, truth-sharer, fiercely free





Dana's Journey

Who you are today does not determine your tomorrow.

Dirty Sci-Fi Buddha

Musings and books from a grunty overthinker

Laura's 180

Turning my life around, one day at a time.

Elan Mudrow


%d bloggers like this: